My Joker

Nocturne in Blue

And there it is again

The rising, falling

Ever building fountain
Lifetimes of avoidance 

Spilling 

At our feet.

You see it, too

Thinking you would leave
If you were me
You hate you, too
But it's too far gone now;
The wilderness
Beckons.

Raised voices

Incessant howls
Countless, relentless
Helpless

Numbness
Doors locked, doors opened

It won't end
Madness begets madness.

It’s not what you said

Or did

Or didn’t do

Or are

Or are not.

I choke on the same air
From which we once built castles

Forgiveness spreads like cancer.

Me, 2010

What a night for a dance, you know I'm a dancing machine
With a fire in my bones and the sweet taste of kerosene
I get lost in the night so high I don't want to come down
To face the loss of the good thing that I've found


In the dark of the night I could hear you calling my name
With the hardest of hearts I still feel full of pain
So I drink and I smoke and I ask you if you're ever around
Even though it was me who drove us right in the ground


See the time we shared it was precious to me
But all the while I was dreaming of revelry


Born to run, baby run like a stream down a mountainside
With the wind in my back I don't ever even bat an eye
Just know it was you all along who had a hold of my heart
But the demon and me were the best of friends from the start


So the time we shared it was precious to me
All the while I was dreaming of revelry
Dreaming of revelry


And I told myself boy away you go, it rained so hard it felt like snow
Everything came tumbling down on me
In the back of the woods in the dark of the night
Paleness of the old moonlight everything just felt so incomplete


I was there once, too. This also has been one of the dark places of the earth.